Jolynn sized faith

I just love it when God confirms His call to me.  I have to say that I am weak in my faith.  Oh, I don't desire that at all, I just am.  I wish for the faith of Abraham or Esther - big faith - HUGE faith. But I have a Jolynn kind of faith, one that needs ongoing confirmations.  I'm sure that Abraham and Esther needed that too, it just seems theirs was this mountain sized belief.  So, I strive for theirs while building my own. 

 

One day last week, I was having my quiet time and I was begging God for one of His confirmations.  I'm a big believer in doing what He asks me to do it's just I question what I'm hearing all the time.  I'm getting better at knowing His voice, don't get me wrong, but there are many times when I just want to be reassured.  Last week was one of those times.  I'm sitting outside on our deck with the sun brightly shining and big gusts of wind blowing.  I had my journal on my lap and I started asking Him to show me that I am suppose to start writing.  At that very moment a gust of wind came up and blew the pages of my journal.  I sat there soaking in the sun with my eyes closed waiting for His word and hearing silence.  Another big gust of wind but this time the pages of my journal stayed open to the place it previously had blown.  I don't know why I thought that odd, but I opened my eyes and looked down and saw this: 

 

 

It was what I had written during the writing conference I attended 2 weeks prior.  Confirmations.  God is in the business of them, to build my faith so that someday I just may have the faith of Abraham and Esther...but for today, I'll take my Jolynn sized faith.





"Now is the time"

Have you ever received a word from God that is so clear you HAVE to obey?  That's what has been happening to me these last few months.  Let me explain.  2 years ago, God called me to "come away with Me and rest"  In those 2 years I have been waiting on Him.  Listening for Him.  Abiding in Him.  Being loved on by Him.  It has been a very sweet time for me.  In those 2 years He has whispered to me to share my story.  I didn't know how He wanted me to do that but just recently He showed me. He told me that "now is the time" for me to share it - by writing

about it.  So, I begin on this journey of writing my story.  Sharing His glory.  Showing all of His fingerprints on my life.

I have to be honest - I'm experiencing a mixture of excitement, reservation, and a healthy share of FEAR.  What if I don't know how to write well?  What if no one really cares?  What if it's a total flop?  So many what ifs, but He's not telling me to ask those questions.  He's telling me to trust Him.  Trust Him with this calling.  Trust Him with giving me the right words.  Trust Him with my story. 

Can I ask you for something?  Please pray for me.  Pray that I won't rely on my own strength.  Pray that only He receives the glory.  Pray for wisdom for me as I go through untraveled waters - again.  Pray that others will be encouraged through my story.  Pray that they will know that God never leaves or forgets about them.  My hope is that people will be encouraged as they read about my story.  That they will know it is possible to see God's fingerprints on their faith.  That they are able to hear God speaking to them and possibly saying "now is the time".